Perseverance in Repentance
Consider it pure joy, my brothers and sisters,[a] whenever you face trials of many kinds, because you know that the testing of your faith produces perseverance. Let perseverance finish its work so that you may be mature and complete, not lacking anything. If any of you lacks wisdom, you should ask God, who gives generously to all without finding fault, and it will be given to you. [James 1:2-5 (NIV)].
Repentance requires acknowledging sin, confessing to God, and asking for forgiveness. The cognitive mind must understand that it has deviated from its proper course and has transgressed. To be effective, repentance must remain attached to perseverance.
Good fortune and misfortune take effect through perseverance. The way of heaven and earth becomes visible through perseverance. The way of sun and moon become bright through perseverance. All movements under heaven become uniform through perseverance. [The I Ching].
Despair, Penance and Repentance
Repentance comes only when the physical reality of sin penetrates to our inner heart and lodges itself there. Our contrition starts in our conscience when we acknowledge our wrongdoing and grows until it finds comfort in faith, where it is delivered from despair.
If a man has beheld evil, he may know that it was shown to him in order that he learn his own guilt and repent; for what is shown to him is also within him. [Baal Shem Tov].
When physical, mental and spiritual calamities strike, they humble us and make us call for help. They send our souls scurrying into the realm of the Divine for forgiveness and protection. This is the work of God.
We turn to God for help when our foundations are shaking, only to learn that it is God shaking them. [Charles C. West].
Guilty of error, whether wilful or inadvertent, the self must then incline toward correction. Even before we perform any penance, a turning of the heart is required. By turning away from sin and leaving what God has prohibited, we return to what He has commanded.
“Rebbe, I am a sinner. I would like to return, to do teshuvah [repent]!” R. Israel of Ryzhin looked at the man before him. He did not understand what the man wanted. “So why don’t you do teshuvah?”"Rebbe, I do not know how!” R. Israel retorted. “How did you know to sin?” The remorseful sinner answered simply. “I acted, and then I realized that I had sinned.” “Well,” said the Rebbe, “the same applies to teshuvah, repent and the rest will follow of itself!” [Quoted in "The Dynamics of Teshuva" from the book Deep Calling Unto Deep, by Dr. J. Immanuel Schochet].
Purification through Repentance
God is with us in our deepest despair and our highest ecstasy. However, in despair is when we need God most. When lost, we are most aware of our dependent condition — in the darkness of the night, wandering blindly in our recalcitrance.
Our penitence generates humility and is the prime response of our awakened conscience. Having acknowledged guilt, we turn the remorseful mind to correcting the perverted conditions that stimulated sorrow and regret.
From sincere penance, we gain confidence and tranquility, while discarding anxiety and fear. From our repentance, we resolve to continue living in accord with Divine principles of goodness and compassion.
Often we will remember our prior weaknesses with sorrow and crying. However, the tears from our eyes are expressing the joyful state of our soul. Our lament is evidence of our sincerity that documents that we truly turned to God.
Even if the most sinful person resolves to worship Me with single-minded loving devotion, such a person must be regarded as a saint because of making the right resolution. [Bhagavad Gita 9.30]
When we rushed toward lustful cravings and uncontrolled gratification, we plunged our soul into great depths of spiritual darkness. However, repentance replaces recurring thoughts of previous wrongdoing. Our past evil life can make us feel disheartened. However, purification through repentance cleanses the soul of the sediment deposited by our prior prodigal existence.
The most dangerous thief is unwholesome thought; the most precious treasure is virtue … the most tormenting pain is bad conscience; the height of bliss is redeemed awakening [The Gospel of Buddha].
Repentance, Mercy and Grace
So now, we must be patient in climbing out. The cure for our spiritual disease must be gradual for it to be long-lasting. A bone that we break in a split second takes weeks to heal. Likewise, spiritual breakdowns come suddenly, but are only healed gradually.
The soul rising out of sin to a devout life is like the dawn of a new day. It does not banish darkness suddenly, but by degrees. All addictions are resilient, so we must commit to fighting a long-term war. We must persevere to the end.
Nay, seek (God’s) help with patient perseverance and prayer: It is indeed hard, except to those who bring a lowly spirit,- Who bear in mind the certainty that they are to meet their Lord, and that they are to return to Him. [Quran 2:45-6].
Praise and thanks belong to You, oh Lord. You offered grace and we accepted. We receive it and thank You. Yet, we seek to come closer, to understand more, to serve with the light You provide. As servants, all we can ask is to know what more can we do to please You. We wait and watch, trusting and fearing, knowing our weaknesses, our humanity, our many faults.
I — yes, I alone — will blot out your sins for my own sake and will never think of them again. [Isaiah 43:25 (NLT)]
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